Heaven's not a place that you go when you die

It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive...

My heaven:

1. Driving and belting out The Tide by The Spill Canvas with Carl and Jake
2. Sitting on my bathroom floor with Katie at 4am, drunk, laughing, and rehydrating.
3. Rupert's Clubhouse.
4. Snow football at midnight.
5. Laying in bed, talking all night.



...So live for the moment and take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget everything that you have heard

i have this sudden urge to drink...heavily...

its funny how you think you're completely over something...until it comes and slaps you across the face.

or until it comes and slaps itself across your newsfeed on facebook. ha. oh, technology.

now, he = in a relationship with her
me = emotional mess

why can't i rise above this??

he walks away unscarred and untouched. he walks away unaffected.
i walk away with trust issues. i walk away with the inability to get close to ANY guy. i walk away hurt, confused, and completely changed.

why is this fair?
the one who was wrong can just walk away and move on and lead a normal life.
and me? i'm scarred.


i'm just done with men in general. done. they're all the fucking same.